052: Escape
He comes in and closes the door. I freeze. We stare at each other for a moment. My heart is in my mouth. I can't be alone with you. I only want to be alone with you. I'm so terrified to start something I want my mouth to be on yours I don't ever want to see you again I want to lay my head on your chest. Somehow your eyes seem to hold all the answers. My heartbeat creeps up to my neck and all I want is to get closer to bolt past you and out the door and slam it behind me. I don't want to get hurt again. Somehow your eyes are clearer than ever.
I slip on my shoes, grab my keys and walk out the door. I don't stop walking until I'm at Aiden's. I ring the doorbell and he opens the door within seconds.
"Hey! You okay?"
Of course he knows immediately that something's wrong.
"I'm fine."
I smile and he doesn't ask anymore questions.
We sit on the sofa with some tea and we don't talk about anything, we just listen to The Honeysticks. Here is safe. Here no-one can get to me, nothing can happen. Amy walks in.
"Oh hey Leo."
"Hey!" I smile. I hope it doesn't seem forced. Suddenly the warm feeling has shrunk and I'm aware of time passing, time until I have to go home. I don't want to look at Aiden. I spring up and go into the kitchen, pour Amy some tea. Going back into the living room all I want to do is go back outside. I go to the loo and come back. I go get some water and come back. Time spent in there with them is just time trying to figure out a way to get out.
There's no space for me here anymore. All I've been able to do since I got here is lose people.
Written by: @leoninepixie on Instagram
I slip on my shoes, grab my keys and walk out the door. I don't stop walking until I'm at Aiden's. I ring the doorbell and he opens the door within seconds.
"Hey! You okay?"
Of course he knows immediately that something's wrong.
"I'm fine."
I smile and he doesn't ask anymore questions.
We sit on the sofa with some tea and we don't talk about anything, we just listen to The Honeysticks. Here is safe. Here no-one can get to me, nothing can happen. Amy walks in.
"Oh hey Leo."
"Hey!" I smile. I hope it doesn't seem forced. Suddenly the warm feeling has shrunk and I'm aware of time passing, time until I have to go home. I don't want to look at Aiden. I spring up and go into the kitchen, pour Amy some tea. Going back into the living room all I want to do is go back outside. I go to the loo and come back. I go get some water and come back. Time spent in there with them is just time trying to figure out a way to get out.
There's no space for me here anymore. All I've been able to do since I got here is lose people.
Written by: @leoninepixie on Instagram
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